big change

my best friend had a blog titled 'GOING FOR BIG CHANGE' recently
and as much as i HATE change, it's something i've been trying to do.

i've been trying to get everything in my life TOGETHER!
i want to get out of here[guam].
and every time i try to get outta here, something always happens that prevents me from doing so.
there are to many people in my life that i feel i have to take care of. and
i'm so afraid to let people down.
so i'm stuck in this state of mind that change is not a good thing. it's uncertainty
and i'm not ready to make that big of a commitment to something like that.


BUT


i want to so bad.
i want to dive into uncertainty and face whatever may come my way!
i wanna live life spontaneously.
not a care in to world.



one day, someday,
hopefully soon!