XMAS

HAPPY CHRISTMAS everyone.
my favorite christmas song

Coulda Shoulda Woulda

The "If You Had to..." section:
1.] If you HAD to get a tattoo, where would you want it and what would you want it to be of?
top back... something HUGE!


2.] If you HAD to dye your hair which color would you choose: orange, blue, green or purple?
-purple.


3.] If you HAD to get a piercing (THAT ISN'T YOUR EARS) what would you get pierced?
-my nose

4.] If you HAD to change your name what new name would you choose?
-always samantha


The "Would You?" section:
1.] if you could go bungee jumping, would you?
-YES!

2.] Would you move somewhere else, if you could?
-SURE WOULD


3.]If you were given the chance to move to Paris, would you?
-no

4.] if you found 10 million dollars, and it was YOURS to spend, what would you spend it on?
-rounds on me....forever


The "Let's say..." section:
1.] Let's say you see a big ship sink...only 3 people have a chance to survive.

The 3 people are your best friend, your boyfriend/girlfriend, and a long lost friend, who would you save if you HAD to choose ONLY 1 person?
-i would save all 3.
i'm that GREAT!


2.] Let's say you became President what is the first thing you would do?
- get drunk.


4.] Let's say you could bring one person back from the dead, who would you bring back?
- hands down, grandpa


5.] Let's say you could star in any movie (made or in the works) what movie?
-dakota fanning; in man on fire


The "Favorites" section:
What is your favorite...
1.] color?
red

2.] song?
-depends


3.] shirt you own?
-my first soy shirt


4.] electronic device?
-my cellphone

5.] movie?
-man on fire
denzel washington is the man


6.] book?
-a million pieces.


7.] pair of shoes?
-adidas

8.] sandal color?
black

9.] hair color?
black

10.] eye color?
Brown

The "other stuff" section:
1.] What makes your bedroom unique?
--it's mine

2.] What is your favorite outfit to wear?
--nothing but my tshirt on.


4.] What makes YOU an individual?
-- i do what i want

5.] What is your anti-drug?
--music.... put it on and drift away

MICHELLE's BACK!

but not for the reason's i want her back for.




but she's BACK!

be happy bitches!

little influence

so i have three little brothers who i LOVE to death.

its crazy cause i love tryna get them to like the stuff i like n most of the time it works.
but with that jeremy boy...
he's funny
everytime i find a new song thats just crazy to me im always like jer, come n check this out n when he hears it hes all that sucks.
the next thing i know is that that song is on his ipod on REPEAT!
he sees me checkin out his ipod and just smiles.

im a youtube freak so im always on youtube checkin stuff out, n one thing i really into right now is rnb dances, so again i show jer n he tells me they suck. hes all bboy for life kinda stuff.


the point is that recently they won the contest to perform with fanny pak,boogie bots n kaba modern for their 2 day concert here on guam
n my bros n their other member are preparing a dance
n jers looking into that whole rnb dance style.
and he said it was because of me.

so yeah
i feel good.

pet peeves

you know what i hate?

LOTS

but this is some of the things buggin me at the moment.

tom's mom.
fuckin irritating.
i hate it when people think they cantelll me to do shit for them when they can do it themselves or pass it along to THEIR own kids.
it fucken bugs the shit outta me.

i hate people who are always last minute for EVERYTHING and bitch at you for their bullshit.

i hate the way im livin life right now!
i wanna have fun.
i wanna be out all night every night
i just wanna be doing shit

k
done!

so michelle left yesterday....



i wanted to print this out and frame it to give to her



but i just never had the time.

so michelle when you read this or if you read this, this was for you.


you lucky bastard got outta here



anyways thanks to michelle my sleeping habits have altered
im so used to geting home around 4 in the morning, so this morning i find myself walking around the house in the dark with nothing to do WIDE AWAKE!


imissyounig

so little time

so things lately have been a motherfucker!

first thing is I'm BROKE!
and i still keep finding myself spending.

second thing is.... MICHELLE is LEAVING!
oct. 29, 2008.
and that day is commin closer than i think.
im just disappointed in myself by not making the greatest effort to do everything one last time.

and last but not the least is...
i don't have anytime to myself.
okay maybe i'm just not using my time wisely.

but it fucken irritates me when i have to take care of everyone!
im fucken tired
tired of taking my sister to school and work plus picking her up after work (1130pm)
and im just tired of being responsible for everyone!
i always have to 'check my schedule' i can never say just give me a time and ill be there
i wish i could get into great details on this but then it would just irritate the fuck outta me and im about to leave to go watch nick and norah's infinite playlist, and explaining this will make me not want to go.


okay i'm done 'venting'
updates on the last couple days will come soon

ONE!

KICKS/HAWAII

so KICKS/HAWAII 'YOU KNOW WHERE WE STAY ' will be opening up here on the island this commin saturday!

it's CRAZY
people are gettin excited for it.
i'm super excited.
but if you read my previous blogs im in a dilemma.
so fuck!

ahha...

i just wanted to let you all know about the excitement happening on the island.
important things.
for ME.
and that's all that matters!
ONE!

balla holla

so FIBA OCEANIA will hold it's 2008 youth tournament here on GUAM.

FIBA!!
they are the organization that make the rules to the game of basketball, well at least like the ones being used to follow in the nba.
i will meet FIBA officials and the president and everyone very important not to mention people from Fiji, Australia, New Caledonia, Papua New Guinea, Northern Mariana Islands, Palau, and Tahiti.
it's incredible because not everyone has this opportunity or take advantage of opportunities like this.

the games are not run by professionals, well the are RUN'd by FIBA officials, but they ask for volunteers to help run everything (e.g. score table, refreshments, entrance, floor cleaners and such)


and the exciting thing for me is that i was talked about and was asked to help because of my experience. (i'm glad im being recognized in basketball)
i will not be cuttin tickets or selling drinks of that sort. something more important
can you say SCORE TABLE.
yes.
either shot clock or timer.
okay it might now be so exciting for you but it is to me!
I'm right there in all the action.
i hear the good the bad.
the pressures on us to make sure everything is accurate and runs smoothly.

and boy am i great under pressure! ha

well here's for the days to come
so i apologize in advancement if i become unplugged... again

forgive and forget...

i've never been a fan of.
i have a friend who fucked up too MANY times in my book.
things blew out of porportion that caused this huge gap between the group, even til this very day theres this bad air that floats around.
over something super stupid, super small.

and for the longest time i was just pissed at him.
i just shut him out of my life.
and today i missed him.

i wanted to pick up the phone and tell him that
i miss you
you fucked up and you don't understand what you did
and i know if was a lonley year for you
but
i miss you
and i FORGIVE you.

but do i want to do that?
that we shall see.

til next time

big change

my best friend had a blog titled 'GOING FOR BIG CHANGE' recently
and as much as i HATE change, it's something i've been trying to do.

i've been trying to get everything in my life TOGETHER!
i want to get out of here[guam].
and every time i try to get outta here, something always happens that prevents me from doing so.
there are to many people in my life that i feel i have to take care of. and
i'm so afraid to let people down.
so i'm stuck in this state of mind that change is not a good thing. it's uncertainty
and i'm not ready to make that big of a commitment to something like that.


BUT


i want to so bad.
i want to dive into uncertainty and face whatever may come my way!
i wanna live life spontaneously.
not a care in to world.



one day, someday,
hopefully soon!

life's easy button

don't you really wish there was one.
if only
i'd press the button to pay for school
i'd use it to take the stress away

i see people who work minimum wage jobs and has a kid and to me just seem like they should be the one struggling to make ends meet but are living life fine.
and here i am making more than minimum wage no children and here i am having a hard time.

i don't get this shit.
what do i gotta do to get to livin the "FINE" life?

giddy

do you remember the first time you had a crush on someone?
what about the first time you talked to a boy/girl on the phone?
remember smiling after you hung up with them for no reason?

the reason i ask is because recently my 10 year old brother has been talking to this girl on the phone and online and it's the cutiest thing in the world.
when you ask him whos that girl that keeps calling him he has the HUGEST smile in the world and just says 'i don't know'

aww.. puppy love...

i feel we need another word to replace love in puppy love, for love seems to hold such a huge meaning.
and i know anything happening with my brother is far from love.

til next time

one

I thought I saw you yesterday
But I didn't stop cause you was walking the opposite way
I guess I could have shouted out your name
But even if it was you I don't what I would say
We can sit and reminisce about the old school
Maybe share a cigarette because we both fools
Chop it up and compare perspectives Life<>
Yes'
You could tell me how hard you had it
And you could show me all the scares to back it
And we can analyze each complaint
Break it down and explain these mistakes i make
I like to tangle up the strings of the puppetry
But you knew me back when i was a younger me
You've seen Sean in all types of life
And I've been meaning to ask you if I'm doing alright

(Chorus) Yesterday, was that you
Looked just like you
Strange things my imagination might do
Take a breath reflect on what we've been through
Or am I just going crazy cause I miss you
Yesterday, was that you
Looked just like you
Strange things my imagination might do
Take a breath reflect on what we've been through
Or am I just going crazy cause I miss you

I'm Shook I
know I pushed when I should of pulled
Took it all back if I could I put that on my soul
And I would make a top notch good listener
If you could block off a little time out to give it here
Since we went our separate paths I hits a couple of snags
That remind me of the past
I cant front I'm having a blast
But damned if I ain't afraid of how long its gonna last
Sitting here wishing we could kick it
Gimme your opinions I do miss the criticisms
I didn't mean to be distant
Make a visit Ill wait up and keep the coffee brewing in the kitchen
But who am I jokin' with
Theres no way that you and I will ever get to re-open it


for my grandpa
today's his fifth death anniversary.

R.I.P
'ALEX MARQUEZ'
imissyou

. the first.

okay here is my first blog for all of you who are checking this place out.

hello
hahaha

i will update this when im free.